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[Jan. 9th, 2007|07:13 pm] |
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I am OK with just being friends with her. It took a while to get here. But I think it is better this way. She is a great friend and her being there as a friend has made me happier than any relationship I've ever had. I don't have to worry about jealousy or anything like that. |
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| :) |
[Aug. 16th, 2006|12:31 am] |
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I am feeling pretty good about myself. That is all. |
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| relapse |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|08:07 pm] |
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I biked with her today to her sister's place. I met her niece, nephew, and sister. She's so good with children. We left our bikes at her place and walked to Office Max. She needed some supplies for school. Then we met up with two of her friends at Darla's Burger on Irving. Their burgers are served on a french roll. Then we biked back home. She hasn't been gone for much more than 2 hours and I already miss her. How do you know if a girl likes you? I know that actions speak louder than words. So even if she says that she isn't ready for a boyfriend right now... How can I test her to see if she doesn't want to be just friends?
It is funny. How in anime that they always say that you should keep smiling in front of the one that you like. Even if you are going through tough times. Maybe I should try that. Its going to be hard though, seeing as how I'm such a pessimist. |
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| halo 2 |
[Aug. 8th, 2006|05:30 am] |
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Today I met some of her friends. We played Halo 2 at their house. 7 guys, myself included and her. She watched at first, tried to play a few rounds, and then began to fall asleep. When we were playing, I didn't even think about her. Even though she was less than 4 feet away. There is hope yet that my heart will remain intact. I will just have to distract myself with games until someone else steals my heart... |
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| love sucks |
[Aug. 7th, 2006|02:56 am] |
Some friends of mine played this silly card game called King. There were four players including myself. A King, an ace, a two, and a three are used to play this game, since there are 4 players. The four cards are shuffled and each player picks a card. Whoever gets the King card picks two numbers and decides what those two have to do. I had to kiss her on the cheek. Her skin was so soft. I hope the next time I do it, she won't be that squeamish.
I am such a coward. I know that she doesn't like me. I don't want to ruin the friendship. If only she liked me back. Then I wouldn't be in such agony.
I wish I didn't have these feelings for her. She's beautiful, lots of fun, and a good talker. Everything that I am not =/ Even worse is that I'm hopelessly in love with her.
In another round, I had to kiss her on the lips. She used an envelope to separate our lips and kissed that instead. =C
I am foolish.
I feel like numbing myself with endless hours of level-grinding in an MMORPG.
Tomorrow, I say goodbye to my long hair and go with spikes. |
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